“‘I’ll give it to you!’…and flung himself vigorously, violently down on to Mrs. Filmer’s area railings” (Woolf 78).

I read this book back in 2018 for another class, so this second read has been quite a refresher, especially this quote. This moment comes at a turning point in the novel, in which we see the heartbreaking culmination of Septimus’ struggles throughout the story, as we see how the war and his friend’s passing had an effect on him. He was meant to be taken away to a psychiatric home by Sir William, but Septimus clearly had different plans. He was afraid of what his fate would be at the psychiatric home, as he felt that society was out to get him due to his emotional absence. At the same time, though, he didn’t want to die, so it’s more of a “what other choice do I have?”, as in dying is better than whatever he was to face if taken away.